This year, I took World Cuisine, an advanced cooking class meant for kids in grads 10 and up who have already taken at least one year of cooking. It ended up being an awful experience and because I only have a week of the class left, I want to reflect on it.

I transferred into the class a month late and a month later our teacher ran away to Texas and we had a sub for a month before getting a replacement. The kids in the class are 3-4 years older than me. Ms. Fiel, the teacher, has no clue how to teach.

She constantly screams at the class and explains the same thing over and over. She doesn’t know how to cook, at all, and can’t control children. We barley cooked the whole year and it was in giant groups, but I was lucky to get a group with the most okay people in the entire class.The kids don’t listen to her, and she doesn’t know how to make it stop so she just makes it worse.

The class use to give me really really bad anxiety and I would dread it everyday because of all the screaming and aggression. The kids do drugs in class and make rape jokes and the teacher punishes the wrong people for bullying her and no one is happy and it just sucks.

She thinks I’m kind of cool and she always tells me the same thing over and over and on one hand is nice because she believes in letting people do whatever they want to with their own lives but at the same time she is judgmental and a hypocrite and rude and ignorant and ugh. One day, I came in to hand in questions to help her with her project so she could get her Master’s and she was crying and she told me all about her depression and anxiety and her daughter with adhd and her son and how difficult he is and how no one appreciates her and how her father died last year and about her thearapy and about how her mother abused her and how she got divorced  and her money problems and it was so awful and I feel bad for her.

I’m just really upset that my mental health is compromised because of how she runs the class. It’s a waste of time and it’s killing my interesting and enthusiasm for cooking. 

This is a completely different topic, but part of the reason I don’t want a job is because I know that I won’t be able to do it well and people will suffer because of it.